Jul
7
I tried/am trying really hard, but I can’t do it. In my mind, I’ve steeled myself and I’m all, “Okay. You’ve got to do this. It’ll benefit your relationship. You have to do it.” But when you came by tonight and I took in your grin, your hug, your hands, your smell, my resolve crumbled. I tried to come out and say it (based on my count) about four or five times, but I choked each time. And it didn’t help that you were rushing to get home.
What is it with this hold you’ve got over me? Now, I’ve got myself thinking that maybe I don’t need to do this. And no matter how wrong I know that is, I’m unable to change my mind. (You make me hate myself sometimes.)
