I’m kinda disappointed that I haven’t been updating as regularly as I thought I would, but that’s besides the point.
I’ve realized that you and I annoy each other, probably more than the other lets on. On my end, I’m annoyed/disappointed that you’re not that same way you used to be during our first year together, that we’re not as compatible as I used to think we were. (When we first started dating, I thought we were so compatible, it was scary. It was like we were made for each other, like I was the key and you were the lock. Or vice versa. But as time has gone on, I’ve seen our opposing sides, that we as in harmony as I’d first thought.) On your end, you’re probably annoyed/disappointed that I’m not as carefree with our relationship as I used to be. I used to not care (too much) if we didn’t see each other for a week or if you decided to go hang out with your friends instead of me. I’ve probably grown to be more clingy. (Still working on it. Swear.)
Despite all that though, I still think we were made for each other. Your friend once told me to keep doing whatever it is I’m doing because it keeps you grounded. Your other friend once told me that I’m the only one who can oppose you the way I do, the only one who can, for lack of a better phrase, “keep you on a leash.” In other words, I keep you controlled. I think you’re the only one who keeps me sane and keeps me from becoming too irrational over things. You keep me logical and allow me to think straight. So despite all that, when it comes down to it, you and I need each other. When it comes down to it, it’s you and me for… a long time.
