I’m nervous about the next week or so. The first reason is pretty silly, though I’m sure a lot of girls understand me. A game you’ve been so looking forward to is coming out in a couple of days and I’m sure I’ll be seeing less of you. I’ve never had a problem with how often you play games though. I’ve never even minded when I come over and all I do is watch you play. As long as it’s time with you, I don’t mind what we’re doing. The second reason is that you’ve got family coming in, too, this week, family you haven’t seen in years, I wanna say. This one I don’t mind too much as well considering family is family.
Last reason is that you’re going out (alone) to eat with a girl I’ve told you before I have, well, jealousy problems with. Your relationship with her has never been overly threatening; it just worries me sometimes how close you are to her. Of course it’d be unfair of me to ask you to cut off that friendship; 1) that’s just not something I could ever ask anyone to do and 2) it’d be hypocritical of me considering I’ve a friend of the opposite sex who I’m extremely close with. You’ve told me time and time again that you would never go for her because you know your personalities would clash, you know it wouldn’t work out, etc.
I wish though that you’d tell me, though, that you’d never go for her because you’re completely content with who you’re with, that you don’t need to look elsewhere because you’re here. It’s just that, as cliche as it sounds, it makes me feel like crap, for lack of a better word, when you’re constantly talking and texting with other girls (not just that one specific girl) more than you do with me. At the risk of sounding dramatic, I’m gonna go out and say that I wish that, even sometimes, my company was enough for you.
