You know, we’re really good when we’re together (physically). I don’t mean that sexually. I mean, when we’re around each other, we just mesh (most of the time). Of course, we annoy and irritate each other (more often in the past few months than ever), but we always forgive and go back to each other.
But when we’re apart, it’s a completely different story. I don’t know what’s going through your mind during the times that we’re not together, but for me, it seems like we’re not a good fit. I need someone who checks up on me once in a while, asks me about my day, makes sure I get home safely, drives me home when he has the time so that I don’t have to commute. These things may seem like they’re all about, “me me me,” but it’s only because usually, it’s always about, “you you you.” I think about you constantly, I ask you about your day, about your friends, your studies; if I’m asking you for a favor, I always feel bad because I feel like I’m intruding on your time. Those kinds of things. And it sucks because I should be able to ask you for a favor without feeling bad, without feeling like crap about it. I shouldn’t have to commute home for 45 minutes after a really long day while you’re at home, playing games or with your friends, eating and having a round or two of drinks. I sound so whiney right now, but I NEED YOU TO BE HERE. I don’t feel you anymore. I mean, I don’t feel your presence, your effort in this relationship. I know I’m not the best girlfriend or anything; I’m far from it. But I’m not asking for too much. I just want you to be here, to care more.
